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Father Leo’s Daily Meditation FATE

I am the master of my fate; I
am the captain of my soul.
– William E. Henley

Things do not just happen, we make them happen. For years I thought that my getting
well was dependent upon my family getting well. I rooted my recovery in the recovery
of others. I was the typical co-dependent.

Then somebody said, “Why don’t you start taking responsibility for your own life?” I
thought about that remark for weeks. I spent nights dwelling on the implications of
those words. I am sure that I had heard similar sentiments a hundred times but that
night, that special night, I was ready to hear them. A spiritual moment.

Today I believe that such spiritual moments produce a spiritual process that I must
keep alive. I am the deciding factor in what happens to me and what I can achieve.
God has created me to be involved in my recovery.

May I always steer my life in the direction of truth and love.

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“Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the
body is weak.”
Matthew 26:41

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,
gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
Galatians 5:22-23

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For the majority of my life I held my parents responsible for my condition…I said it was due to my childhood the way I had turned out…Then in my 40’s I started to say…How long can a person blame their conditions of their parents & I tried to make out that I had healed…but the trouble was I still was sick…I was drunk constantly or I was a very bitter dry drunk…After hitting my final bottom & starting to work the program of Alcoholics Anonymous I found out in my 4th step that I STILL held my parents responsible & I had great resentments about that…With the 5th step I was able to admit my responsibility & go about the things I needed for change…I asked god to take away my defects & then I made amends to my parents…FREEDOM…Freedom came with those actions & my soul was a peace…Today I continually work the steps trying to ever grow & become more grateful & helpful
Are  you working the program of Alcoholics Anonymous…Meetings…Sponsor…The steps…& lastly but most importantly have you found your Higher Power…This is the way to freedom & serenity…Please leave me a comment about where you are in your sobriety…

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Keep It Simple Spiritual Happiness

One is happy as the result of one’s own efforts.— George Sand
Happiness is not an accident. It comes from following the spiritual voice found in each of us.
This isn’t always easy. Sometimes, the voice tells us to do things we’re afraid of. For Example, if we’re lonely and the voice tells us to call someone on our phone list, we may make excuses to not do it. Again, the voice may say, “Just make the call. It will be okay.” If we follow the
voice, we will find happiness. The spiritual voice inside us speaks of care and love. It will never tell us to hurt others or ourselves. It’s our Higher Power’s voice . It’s what Step Eleven calls “conscious contact.” If we follow this guiding voice, it will lead us to happiness.
Prayer for the Day:  I pray that I’ll come to know my Higher Power by listening to the spiritual voice in me.
Action for the Day:  Today, I’ll meditate and listen to my higher power gentle voice within.

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I spent most of my life in a black pit of depression…Unable to get out of it…I tried church, Doctors, Medication(prescribed & non-prescribed) & finally booze & pills…The end was so near so many times…I tried to bring it on but it just would not come…

Today is very different for me…I have found the still soft voice of God in my life…Just as the above article mentions that little voice that tells me what to do…The difference is today I am quiet enough to hear it & confident enough to follow it…I know it will not lead me wrong…Clean house & trust God is my motto…It can be yours too…If you get involved with the 12 step program that deals with your addiction…I work with men who have trouble with liquor, pills, cocaine, sex, even cigarettes…All are finding relief…Not from me but from their higher power & the 12 steps…Give them a try
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As Bill Sees It – To Grow Up

Those adolescent urges that so many of us have for complete approval,
utter security, and perfect romance–urges quite appropriate to age
seventeen–prove to be an impossible way of life at forty-seven or
fifty-seven.

Since A.A. began, I’ve taken huge wallops in all these areas because of
my failure to grow up, emotionally and spiritually.

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As we grow spiritually, we find that our old attitudes toward instinctual
drives need to undergo drastic revisions. Our demands for emotional
security and wealth, for personal prestige and power all have to be
tempered and redirected.

We learn that the full satisfaction of these demands cannot be the sole
end and aim of our lives. We cannot place the cart before the horse, or
we shall be pulled backward into disillusionment. But when we are
willing to place spiritual growth first–then and only then do we have a
real chance to grow in healthy awareness and mature love.

1. Grapevine, January 1958
2. 12 & 12, p. 114

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My life in my disease was all about accomplishments…I needed all the

fame & riches that life had to offer…And if I didn’t get them I would be a total

failure…Needless to say these THINGS eluded me for all my years & I tried to

drown my shame with a bottle…Today things are way different…I still do not

have all the riches & fame but today I am content with my life & surroundings

AA has taught me serenity…Today I love myself & no longer need to validate

myself with THINGS…My Higher Power has taught me to be at peace in the world

& for that I am eternally grateful…

As Bill Sees…It Thy will be done

Do It Our Way?, p. 329

In praying, our immediate temptation will be to ask for specific
solutions to specific problems, and for the ability to help other people
as we have already thought they should be helped. In that case, we
are asking God to do it our way. Therefore, we ought to consider
each request carefully to see what its real merit is.

Even so, when making specific requests, it will be well to add to each
one of them this qualification: “. . . if it be Thy will.”

12 & 12, p. 102

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A lot of the time when I am exposed to a situation I think I know what would
be best if it happened…So I immediately want to go to my prayer closet & let it fly
…So often I find out later that what I perceived as a tragedy turns out to be a miracle
& vice a versa…These days I try very hard to end ALL of my prayers with “if it be thy
will…Thy will be done…Today I trust that God knows better than me…All the time
Leave me a comment about the way you deal with your prayers…Thanx
 
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Gratitude

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I am reflecting back on today…Good friends…Good food…It’s great to be alive…

Keep It Simple Happy Thanksgiving


Love is the reward of love.—Johann von Schiller
When we used alcohol and other drugs, we shared little as possible. There was little love in our hearts. We had become selfish. This caused us to be lonely.
Then something happened to change all of that. Remember the first time you walked into a meeting? You were met by people who shared. Maybe they shared a smile, their story, or just a cup of coffee with you. The sharing that goes on in a Twelve Step program is great. We learn that the more we give, the more we get. We get well by giving to others. Helping others is a great way to hold on to sobriety. Love is the reward of love.
Prayer for the Day:  I pray that I will be there when others need me. I pray that service will become a big part of my program.
Action for the Day:  Today, I’ll think of friends who could use my help. I’ll talk to them and offer to be there for them.

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The first AA meeting I ever went to…I didn’t want to go at all but my Shrink made me…I was greeted by a funny little man with a cane…He asked me if I was new & I told him I was…He showed me around & got me some coffee…It ended up that he chaired the meeting that night…People introduced themselves as alcoholics but they didn’t look like alcoholics they looked just like me…I was looking for the guy with the bug bulbous nose & dirty clothes…I didn’t know at that time who WE were…Then the little man…I’ll call him Alan looked me straight in the eye & said that the newcomer was the most important person in the room…I felt like I belonged & shortly after I found out who & what I was…

Today is Thanksgiving…It’s been 4 years now & this will be the fourth holiday season I have been in AA…I’m going to the noon meeting & then there is a big potluck dinner with all the trimmings I will only be there awhile because I now have so many friends in AA I have been invited to have dinner with some of them…

May your day be Blessed & may you get your fill…Love Kenney

Insights for today…November 25

You are reading from the book Today’s Gift.
All music is what awakes from you when you are reminded by the instruments. –Walt Whitman
A small group of friends sat in a room around a record player. It was a heavy old thing, with parts that had to be operated by hand and only one speaker–nothing like a modern stereo at all, but more like an antique phonograph. The record–a recording of their favorite music–was old, too, and scratched, its grooves worn smooth as a stone in some places. The tone arm skipped and scratched, and the sound was tinny, hard on the ears.
Most of the friends squirmed in their seats as they listened, and several grumbled that it was impossible to hear the music with such inferior equipment.
But one of the group sat listening, her eyes closed, swaying to the music and humming softly to herself.
“How can you enjoy this?” the others asked.
“Ah,” she said with a mysterious smile. “I am listening beyond the recording to the music I know is there!”
Can I find the music that’s playing for me today?

You are reading from the book Touchstones.
It’s the awareness, the full experience… of how you are stuck, that makes you recover. –Frederick S. Perls
When we become aware of how far off our path we have strayed, when we see how cold and hard we were to someone we love, when we are no longer blind to our blindness – then we are touched by painful feelings. We feel guilty about the harm we caused. We grieve the lost moments and lost opportunities. We may feel angry with ourselves for our stubbornness. But even with our pain, we are worlds away from that blindness.
This new awareness is a spiritual place. It brings us back into contact with our Higher Power and makes us available to the words of wisdom and concern of others. It reminds us that no man can walk this path on his own power. We all must remain open and in contact with the healing relationships around us.
I pray for awareness today as my doorway to spiritual healing.

You are reading from the book Each Day a New Beginning.
Change occurs when one becomes what she is, not when she tries to become what she is not. –Ruth P. Freedman
Learning self-acceptance, and then loving the selves we are, present perhaps our two biggest hurdles to the attainment of emotional and spiritual health. Fortunately, they are not insurmountable hurdles. The program offers ready assistance.
Women everywhere are making great strides in self-love and self-acceptance. We are learning self-love. And we are changing. The support we can give our sisters, and the support we receive, multiplies many times the healthy energy created–healthy energy that touches us all.
Emotional and spiritual health are gifts promised by the program, when we work it. We must move beyond our perfectionism and relish our humanness. And the Steps are the way. We must learn humility and develop faith, and the Steps are the way. Learning to love all our parts, the qualities we like and the traits that discouragingly hang on, offers a new freedom. A freedom that invites change. A freedom that safeguards the emotional and spiritual well-being that we strive for.
Confidence will come with my healthy self-acceptance.

You are reading from the book The Language of Letting Go.
Awareness
When we first become aware of a problem, a situation, or a feeling, we may react with anxiety or fear. There is no need to fear awareness. No need.
Awareness is the first step toward positive change and growth. It’s the first step toward solving the problem, or getting the need met, the first step toward the future. It’s how we focus on the next lesson.
Awareness is how life, the Universe, and our Higher Power get our attention and prepare us for change. The process of becoming changed begins with awareness. Awareness, acceptance, and change – that’s the cycle. We can accept the temporary discomfort from awareness because that’s how we’re moved to a better place. We can accept the temporary discomfort because we can trust God, and ourselves.
Today, I will be grateful for any awareness I encounter. I will display gratitude, peace, and dignity when life gets my attention. I will remember that it’s okay to accept the temporary discomfort from awareness because I can trust that it’s my Higher Power moving me forward.

Today I celebrate all of me exactly as I am. –Ruth Fishel

God help me to stay sober and clean today!

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The other day I was asked to share at a meeting about gratefulness…I am so very grateful for all of the many blessings in my life…I shared about being sober & clean…About knowing my higher power who I call God…I was grateful for my friends & family…Grateful for oh so many things…Then a man got up and share that he was grateful for his eyes…and the ability to see…His nose & to smell…His legs & to be able to walk…He continued for quite awhile…After I was thinking & I realized that I indeed was very thankful for all the THINGS in my life but what about the GIFTS that we so easily overlook…I realized then that I needed to spend some time with my gratitude list & really get down to the nitty gritty of things…Soon after I shared about this subject in an AA meeting & I focused on the GIFTS as well as the things…I gave a much fuller view of my gratefulness but to GOD this time & not things…I hope you got something out of this…If so please leave me a comment…KenneyTechnorati Tags: , , ,

 Insights for today...November 25

8 Things to Keep You Drunk

  1. Denial…Thinking you don’t have a problem…Everybody likes to get drunk…Throw up…Get DWI’s…Do it again next week
  2. Arrogance…I don’t need any help I can do this on my own
  3. Self Pity…It’s not my fault I drink like this…I’ve got a bad life or bad luck 
  4. Inactive…Do nothing & expect things to get better on their own
  5. No Change…Keeping the same playmates…ie…Drinking buddies…& Playgrounds…Bars & night clubs
  6. Not Having a Plan…Alcoholics Anonymous is one great way to defeat your drinking problems
  7. Not Following AA’s Suggestions
  • Only going to meetings
  • Not getting a sponsor
  • Not working the steps

    8. Failure to face life on spiritual principals

Any of these things can get/keep you drunk & if your the kind of alcoholic I am…I just couldn’t continue facing life that way…Not sure where to go next…Look up AA in the phonebook…It’s the first listing

 8 Things to Keep You Drunk

Walk In Dry Places…The only reason to drink



The only reason to drink
Staying  sober
“There’s only one real reason I can ever have for taking a drink,  and that’s because I want to.”
This remark at a meeting sums up AA’s position on why we drink.  We never really drink because of pressures and troubles. We drink because we want to, because we feel like taking a drink.
It’s true that a serious crisis, like going into bankruptcy, may make us conscious of an urger to drink. But we know that we’re also likely to have such urges in the face  of good fortune.  The alcoholic who would drink over a bankruptcy would also probably get drunk if he or she won the lottery.
By refusing to accept all of these alleged “reasons” for drinking, AA simplified our problem so we can deal with it.  We either want to drink or we don’t want to drink, period.  Even if we want to drink… and some members do..  AA can show us how to stay sober and eventually lose such desires.
Nothing has the power to make me drink today.  It is only my own willingness that can destroy my sobriety.
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The only reason to drink is because I wanted to drink…I can accept that…I remember trying to quit for weeks sometimes months on end but when I got to the point of failure it was because more than anything else “I wanted to drink that drink”…I could taste it…Smell it…Feel the burn…Then the day came to where I wanted to quit more than I wanted that drink…At that point I realized that “I” couldn’t do it…I had to have help from a power greater than myself…Which for me is God…I had a very visual & auditory experience with God & the fact that this was my time to act…So greatly out of fear but mostly because I had no other options…I surrendered…& at that point I went over to the winning side…That is what surrender means…Not losing but choosing to join the winning team…When I became humble enough that I could turn things over to God is when my term of sobriety began…3 1/2 years now…545…24 hour days…To some that doesn’t seem like a lot but to others it is unbelievable…You know the ones that just got their 5th Desire Chip…I post this blog for the main reason of you can do this…Sobriety is a choice not a curse…I keep what I have by trying to give back what I can…May you all have a blessed day…Kenney

 Walk In Dry Places...The only reason to drink

Walk In Dry Places…Too smart to stay sober



 

Humility
“I’ve never seen anybody who’s too dumb to stay sober. But I’ve met a few people who were too smart.”  These wise words by an older member sum up what we sometimes see…. people who feel turned off by the program because it seems to simple and involves so many people of ordinary education and backgrounds.
Alcoholism is much like other diseases in the way it strikes all people.  Diabetes, for example,  victimizes people of all intelligence and education levels.  We could never believe that being smart would give us an advantage in dealing with  such an illness.
In the same way, the very smart person, has no edge over others in gaining sobriety.  In fact, pride in such gifts can be a stumbling block.  It can be a barrier to the simple acceptance and surrender needed for success in the 12 Step Program.
We do have many very smart people in AA.  They are also wise enough to know that nobody can outsmart John Barleycorn.
We can feel grateful for mental abilities and education that help us get along in the world.  Our sobriety, however, is a separate type of gift that we did not create.
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Humility was a great stumbling block to me for sure…I had so many facets of my personality that I had to keep straight(I was a liar as well) I felt like I had to be in control all the time…But I also wanted you to feel sorry for me because my life was so messed up…When I finally was beaten…all the way to “my bottom” then was I able to say “I can’t do this” I became humble enough to be taught what I needed to do to get sober…Better…I turned my life over to the care of my higher power…God…& I got over in the passenger seat…Nowadays I have very little trouble with admitting that I need help & that other people need help too…The rewarding part of the deal is thru AA & my experience I have found out that I have something to offer others & I can be of service to them…I’ll finish with my favorite prayer…It’s called the 5 finger prayer…Place your hands together palm to palm with you thumbs pointing towards you…Now start with your little fingers they represent the people furthest away from you…Pray for them first…Move to your ring finger…Which is the weakest finger you have…Pray for the people in your life that are weak…next your middle finger…Now don’t get silly…It is the tallest finger so pray for the people in power…ie…Government…Police…you get the idea…Now your index finger…The one that points or instructs…Pray for the teachers & Preachers…Finally your thumbs for they are closest to you…Pray for yourself…This is a great way of thinking of others first…Till next time…Kenney

 Walk In Dry Places...Too smart to stay sober